my bandwagon post that will probably yield about zero comments but i’m writing anyway.

if you're following any number of blogs these days, you’re seeing a lot of these three:

scarce posting
posts apologizing for such scarcity
blogs closing up shop, right before your eyes

i didn’t start blogging to follow the crowd; i did it because i like writing and i wanted to blog. i didn’t fall into this almost-never-posting pattern so i could follow the crowd; it just kind of happened. i like to maybe blame it on the summer, although last summer i was on fire with posts, so you can see my problem with finding something to blame the recent lameness of my blog on.

look, the thing is, the internet is kind of boring me.

(i'll just let that ruminate.)

it’s all just a utility anymore. gone are the days of facebooking for hours. gone are the days of finding creative ways to rick-roll my friends and coworkers. gone are the days of online shopping, even just online window shopping (the economy? who knows).

it’s not that the internet and i are breaking up. we aren’t.

i just need to really decide what the goal of this little blog is, exactly. i’ve used up a lot of space in the ether saying catty things about celebrities. and as you know, the celebs are boring me too now.

when i set out to create this blog, i wanted to use it as a platform to say what i was really thinking…for catharsis, for validating my own crazy and maybe helping a few people validate theirs, too. for bridging the gap between what my life is like and the goals i have about what it will be like 1, 5, 50 years down the road. but never with TMI and always with a little bite. because when people are very nice, it makes me very suspicious, and i can’t be one of those people.

(suspicious of myself? now we’re really making progress.)

so, you have my word. from now on, i’m getting back to my bloggy roots. i’ll be posting only my real observations, my real feelings, my real reality and my real hopes for the future. if you know me for real in real life, i hope with a real hope that this doesn’t make you real uncomfortable.

because actually, one goal i have is to be less guarded and let people in more readily.

and off we go.

oh, and p.s. - if you clicked on that link up there, i guess rick-rolling still is a LITTLE funny. it wasn't even hidden or anything. you just clicked...and i mean...it was sooo easy.