Thursday, May 1, 2008

choices, choices, choices.

i'm not some emo teenager or anything, but i love the book the bell jar. i think i like it because it reminds me of the importance of choices in life and how easy it is to totally lose it.
I saw my life branching out before me like the green fig tree in the story. From the tip of every branch, like a fat purple fig, a wonderful future beckoned and winked. One fig was a husband and a happy home and children, and another fig was a famous poet and another fig was a brilliant professor...and another fig was Europe and Africa and South America...and beyond and above these figs were many more figs I couldn't quite make out. I saw myself sitting in the crotch of this fig tree, starving to death, just because I couldn't make up my mind which of the figs I would choose. I wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest, and, as I sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and, one by one, they plopped to the ground at my feet.
i mean, can't you relate?

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